June 19, 2007 So many times I've tried to give up but I never really had the heart to do so. And when I do all those efforts just go to waste. Well, not exactly because I really can't bear to give up and those worries just keep coming into my mind. I'd try to shake them off but it sticks on stronger than chewing gum onto the soles of my shoes which never got off no matter how hard I tried, maybe because I didn't put enough effort into it.
Somehow at the end of the day it all seems worth it, or maybe I shouldn't have let myself worry at all so that I need not set myself through this torment which I go through alone.
I guess PMS has to play a big role for this absurdity. And I wonder how one like you can make me so happy without much effort Fun isn't as much as I'd perpetuated ; holidays are always not as wonderful as it seems just because you ain't here I hope that wasn't goodbye.Nobody really knows how much the sunshine means to me